Preparing for Lift-off

I find it ironic that this time of “crisis” would be the one in which I choose and am confident in such abandon. For YEARS, I have been encouraged to take such steps – but only now, after jumping jobs and industries, marked personal and professional successes and challenges, do I sense complete alignment of Universal and personal power, potential and play.

Yes, I wanted to use three words that start with “P” :) – but play is such an important component, all too often neglected or forgotten because work is “hard”. There’s also the misperception that those who work “harder” are rewarded more greatly. RUBBISH! Every time I think about the job I’ve accepted, I get a giddy feeling of fun – and this, as much as anything, lets me know I’ve chosen well. I see a world of opportunity, am ready to integrate work and the Law of Attraction, and will share the stories and bounty with you!

The countdown is on, as I begin the day which now marks my final week at St. Gregory’s. As I drove to work yesterday, sluggish from a late night working on the duplex, my mind wandered into thoughts of “I don’t want to be going there”, “ I wish I was (headed anywhere else)” – until I realized how few opportunities remained, for such a drive.

I pass such lovely terrain, as I leave 31505 and head for the highway. Fields of golden grass, so tall that my nephews would disappear in their embrace, wave in winds that truly “sweep down the plains”. Corn fields are such a lush green right now that it seems they INVENTED the color. Other (fields) vary the hue and are dotted with cattle – black, brown, white and speckled – and this living art can never be truly captured by a lens, brush or pen.
I don’t think I had ever seen a Meadowlark before we moved to Shawnee, but their yellow bellies burst from the roadside as I pass. The usual terrain is broken with their fantastically placed splash of sunshine, and my thoughts and mood are immediately elevated.

Since I haven't posted a picture in a while, here's one from the archives:

Life in 500SF with a pseudo-kitchen and no running water provides many an opportunity for "invention out of necessity". I'm also a minimalist and energetically-concious gal - so what do you do when you don't have a microwave or corn popper, but want to munch some kernels while watching a movie? Rediscover Jiffy Pop! The dogs were, of course, freaked out by the process - but we loved the nostalgia and enjoyed every bite.

She LIVES!

Not only that, sweet people (if there are any of you out there who still visit this blog, even though it's been almost a MONTH since my last post) - she THRIVES!

We closed on the duplex in OKC, have started renovations (and, dare I say, are nearing a half-way mark on the renter's side?), I accepted a new job and gave my notice at St. Gregory's yesterday.

There is a beaming smile across my face even as I type this update. These changes mark a new era for me - personally and professionally. I am ACTIVELY ENGAGING my potential and living fearlessly.

Let's be clear: fear still rears it's ugly head - and I acknowledge it (sometimes verbally!) - but I am ever more confident in the fact that it's most often just a "thing". Like a needy child who screams to be recognized, the screaming diminishes once even a glance is cast their way. All bark and no bite. Transformative and temporary.

I have learned enough about myself to know the traditional pitfalls I've encountered and positioned myself in, time and time again. This time, however, I choose differently. Those avenues have been taken and proved futile - NOW I live in confidence, both in myself and the Universe's desire for me to have, do and be all that I can hold in my highest imaginings. In fact, beyond them!

As I iterated in the cover letter I penned to the company I'm preparing to work with: "I am not a Pollyanna. I'm an optimistic hard worker." Perhaps I'd rather say that I'm a diligent worker. "Hard" is a debatable adjective, as I continue to experience the seamlessness of the world's workings in my favor.

May my days be a testimony to the love and potential in all of us. This is my anthem.