Remote blog, 11-29-08

I’ve decided. I’ll blog.

Last night was a reunion of sorts, for some high school classmates; many of whom see each other regularly. Others have maintained contact throughout the years on a looser basis, but I haven’t been in touch with anyone since the first summer I had out of college. Needless to say, that was a while ago.

As soon as I could get out of Guthrie, I did. As soon as I could get out of Oklahoma, I did. I never thought I’d be back; living, anyway. Visits were necessary, but I always kept them at a minimum; and was thankful that my lifestyles never allowed them to last too long.

Looking back, I’m in awe at the amount of running I’ve done: into someone’s arms – then back out again, away from what was at any given moment and towards something – at times almost anything – else, between multiple agendas I had going concurrently… I could have used that energy to master levitation, would I have focused it!

Once I finally learned to be still (which is a lesson I didn’t come to willingly or via healthy means), I find it ironic that I’ve been brought full-circle. I “meet” these beautiful people I had the opportunity to experience earlier in life, learn/hear/see the full lives they’ve had; and I’m thankful they didn’t excommunicate me, even though I tried so hard to achieve it myself.

I welcome the lessons that being home brings. I am confident in myself, the universe’s power and willing partnership; and have unwavering foundation in the form of my sage of a husband. My wild home and furry family ground me in simplicity and beauty, and all… is… well.